I have mixed feelings about each new year. Sometimes I hate to see the old year pass away, other times I am so ready for a new beginning. This is especially true this year. I've found myself reflecting on all that has passed this year, a year of loss and grief. Its hard to find the good and happy things that have happened this year, maybe because the loss and the grief seem to far outweigh the everyday happy occurances although I know they were there. This year I lost Judy, a sister, young, vivacious, kind, and full of life. Why? I've pondered that question so many times that now I'm just tired of thinking about it. This year my husband lost both parents, a mother and a father who were loved and who loved with abandonment. Grief is heavy, consuming. It robs you of your joy, and sometimes your hope. But, there is hope, right? Hope in a new day, hope in a new year, hope in a new beginning, and another chance. With the new year I feel like its an opportunity to take a deep breath, shake off the heavy burdens, and say, "Ok, lets try this again."
No New Year's Resolutions for me this year. I can never keep those, and seem to only disappoint myself anyway. This year, simply reminders of those who are important to me, those who love me, and making the most of every single minute I have to give to those dear ones. I intend to keep a promise, made earlier this year, that I would live life joyfully, and fully, and not wallow in grief and disappointment, that I would seize each day and opportunity to find something good and hopeful in a person or situation. Thats a hard promise to keep sometimes, but isn't this the perfect time for renewed determination? Another chance, with a new year beginning?
This year I am determining happiness in my Happy New Year.
Remember ye not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:18-19
I like that promise, don't you? Here's to new beginnings and new things. Happy New Year.
6 comments:
Rebecca -
I stopped by from Mabel's House and so enjoyed what I read that I signed up to follow you!!
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I do like that scripture Becky. In fact, I like alot of Isaiah. Someone in my Bible Study group accused me of having a "crush" on Isaiah. :) It's true.
Here's to a new year. And hoping for a wonderful one for you dear one.
Love that promise...here's to a much better 2010! I pray you will find much joy in the coming year!
Suzanne
came by way of Susan's snippets and loved this post. I added you to my favorite blog roll (and hope you don't mind) i'll definitely be back for more.
My thoughts are with you due to the loss of your sister. I have 2 and just the thought of losing them scares me too much.
here's to a good 10!
I love that top photo. Did you take it?
I love how your expression of your feelings,touch my feelings even though we go through such different things. I think that is a wonderful promise. I know I am looking for much happier times in 2010 (so far not so good) but am keeping the faith!
Love and miss you my dear friend!
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